Summer heat

July a hot hot summer day. Things have changed already. My anti depression meds is kicking in and sometimes I fly. Have spoken to Andreas only once when he called and its strange how we both interpret things so differently. He even said the separation was because of the pond (the sea) between us. A gross misinterpretation in my point of view, and I told him so. As I see it now, he never gave anything about this relationship and let me think he did. Plenty of blah blah but no action at all. The thing to find out is how come I took that crap for such a long time. I was truly in love with him and would take any humiliation. And looking back so many things were wrong. It makes me so angry with him, which is why I dont want him in my life. Even now he says his present relationship does not compare with me. But then again why does he do all the things I wanted with him with his new bf and never with me. If I can get over my anger, I will have survived this as well, cos that is what that relationship was survival...