Weekend

Had a great weekend, didnt do anything but gym, shop, coffee, lunches, drinks and seeing and talking to loads of people. No libido at all and it feels great, no desire for all kinds of sex sessions. Rather have a latte in town.

Leo

My first therapy session. In 45 minutes Leo concluded that I gave the impression of being depressed and I was impulsive. Both probably accurate come to think of it. I did make impulsive decisions that didnt always turn out right. I believe I always called it organic growing, just things that come our way...

Heidegger

Dasein und Sein, thats the two keywords to describe the philosophy of Heidegger I assume. Went to a lecture about him yesterday. I don't think I agree with the nazi. Sure its good to stay close to who you are but I defenitely believe in self improvement and making something of yourself. Don't stay in on place, I love globalism. But it was an interesting evening out just on my own and I used the old brain again a bit. The bicycle broke down on the way home and I ripped it practically apart to repair it. Woofff such agression.

Recovery

On the road to recovery. Not being in touch is soothing and healing. I missed him this morning but things start to become bearable again. Just a time without being in touch will be good to get perspective and get him out of my system. Easy, quiet weekend with no clubs, just a lot of sleep and drinking loads of coffee in town. Just sit in a coffeeshop and chat up some guy Alex from London, just a nice conversation and thats it. Yoga class on Sunday, great and very tiring, my body is aching and my back still troubles me after pulling it 2 weeks ago. Start my new summer program so I will be gorgeous and buff for the summer.

Ibrahim who was supposed to visit me is still in prison and they havent extradicted him to France yet. I feel for the poor guy, this is just a fucking nightmare for him. Just because you have the wrong papers they can lock you up like that. His poor kid and mother are waiting for him in Paris.

Jeroens birthday last week, yesterday a small party at his place. Great food ofcourse and it was nice. The wodka made me very chit chat. I think I have to throw a party now in May. But maybe nobody will remember that. Gave some people my new business card. Got invited to a concert as well by a friend of Rick, a straight army guy that I met at Ricks place last week. He invited me, just the 2 of us, sounds good heh.......